Monday, April 4, 2011

new blog address

So for some reason the formatting and account information on this blog is messed up.I can't stop following stuff I don't like and can't change my settings.  Don't know why and I'm not a tech person to figure it out. So I started a new blog!
address is

Wednesday, March 2, 2011

why I don't need an Ipad

I have a 5 year old Acer laptop that I bought for $399.00 in 2006. Two years ago I had a friend do a clean reinstall to get some of the junk that was clogging up my computer.I also purchased extra RAM for about 30 dollars and have 2Gs. I only have 16G worth of storage but I purchased an external hard drive for 60 bucks. I maintain my computer by running CC Cleaner and a defrag program at least once a month.

I can watch videos, check email, shop online,download mp3's, etc etc etc etc. I don't have a camera on my laptop but have a digital camera if I want to take pictures or videos.

I don't play games so any apps like that aren't necessary. I do read but have a $10 per month subscription to an online book rental company where I get 4 books at at time, once I return them I get 4 back within a week. I also have  a kindle that was given to me as a gift, because that is something else I would never buy (still appreciate it as a very thoughtful gift though and do use it).
No I cannot bring this laptop with me wherever I go,  as it is inconvenient to do so. But I don't feel like I must have instant access to entertainment and information at all times. I'm fine with a book, a little music, or, gasp! my own thoughts. 
I don't understand why someone would need a laptop, a smartphone, and an ipad. Seems a little excessive to me. And it's not like we're supporting American jobs by buying these things because they are made in China.  Although my laptop was probably made in China, so I'm a hypocrite. Are any electronics made in the U.S.? Don't want to get on a Apple rant here, but does Apple do community outreach and charity work? At least Bill Gates is doing a lot of good with his billions of dollars.

I probably sound like an old lady right now

I hope karma doesn't bite me in the ass and my laptop breaks and I end up having to buy a new one.

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

Babies babies and more babies

So I really don't want to sound like I'm unappreciatvie of my friends or that I'm not happy for them in anyway, but since no one really reads this anyway I probably won't offend anyone.

The thing is, I'm am really sick of hearing about babies, and anything and everything to do with them.

Part of it is that the majority of my friends either have babies or are pregnant right now, so I'm now left out of a HUGE part of their lives and experiences. Since you can really have no idea what it's like to have children unless you do, I have nothing to contribute or add to the conversation on this experience. And since having a child alters your life experience in every way, and that the experience becomes central to everything you do, it is an experience that my girlfriends of course are going to mainly talk about when we catch up. So I can't offer any understanding or advice for them in their lives anymore, or come back with any stories about my experiences, because I don't have them.

Then there's the fact that the media is completely obsessed with famous women/celebrities/media whores being pregnant and that's virtually the only image or story or headline you see about famous women anymore. It sometimes seems like that's the only experience that is important for women anymore, at least according to the media. I find that kind of sad...but I also don't want to in any way diminish what mothers do because it's an important role for women and a role that is very difficult.

And of course being left out or feeling like you're not part of the "club" of new mommies also bothers me because I can't complain about my life being busy or hard, or act like anything I do is all that important because it will never be compared to having a baby. Add that to the fact that for the past decade I have watched (for the most part, happily) and participated in most of my girlfriends' "milestone" moments of happiness...achievements in school, and weddings and having babies. I haven't got any milestones of my own, and selfishly I sometimes think, "when's it my turn? I've never had great or exciting news to share with anyone. No one has ever come to any celebration or event in honor of me."  And well, thoughts like that just sound so pathetic and ungrateful....but they're there.

I've talked to a couple of friends and my mother about my negative feelings attached with anything and everything baby, and they're main response is, why don't you change it? Have a baby. Like it's that simple. I didn't choose not to have kids. My life circumstances have resulted in me not having them.  And while it may be simple for some women to go out and hookup with someone or get  into to a relationship with someone and not worry about or even think/plan about using protection or controlling that part of their lives, I'm not that girl.

So I really don't know what to do. There's really nothing I can do. I'm just not part of the club. I must find some other aspect of my female identity to feel positive and accomplished about instead of the whole mom thing. Because that ain't happening. Not now, and maybe not ever.

Tuesday, January 11, 2011


Oh the weather outside is weather.
Remember that classic movie line? Well people need to start taking it more seriously. Guess what? It's going to snow in the winter. WHO CARES? Everywhere I have lived, every time even small amount of snow is predicted, people start acting like it's 2012 and Armageddon's happening in the morning. You think after YEARS and YEARS of snowfall during the wintertime, people would be fairly proficient in dealing with this phenomenon. But no, every year when it snows you've got people acting like it's the first time anything like this has ever happened.  You've got people crowding the grocery stores and hardware stores, which leads me to ask:  has anyone in this country outside of Alaska been snowed in their houses for more than a few days, to warrant stocking up on extra supplies?  And I'm sorry, but if those poor theater workers and restaurant employees can get to work and  face crowds of people bored out of their minds after being stuck inside on a snow day,  then you probably could have gone to work, too. 

PS: The TV news is dumb.